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Wow...Last weekend was looking like the end of an ordeal, beating the crap out of CC...It was all fun, and now we go and get raped by St. Cloud. Well, tomorrow is @ home against them, and if we can get some retribution I'll be very happy. If nothing else, Wisconsin got owned too...by fucking Michigan Tech.

Anyway, Pride and Prejudice is a bitch, but I managed to get a little less than 100 pages read today, so things are starting to look like they're in pretty good shape.

Once again my console blues have been setting in, and I constantly wonder why I thought that I could ignore all of the fun little goodies that are attached to a 360. Funny thing is, I have absolutely no desire to get a Wii, because there is absolutely nothing on it that I want to play. Yes, I like Trauma Center on my DS (my good console purchase of the year), but if I'm gonna shell out several hundred dollars, I better be getting something other than a lazy man's version of tennis for chirst's sake. (I cannot type tonite, by the way). Really funny thing is that it's all of the analyst predictions that the PS3 will somehow come out in good shape if not on top this time around that make me the most depressed. Okay, so there's final fantasy, and metal gear...maybe tekken, but is that enough to hold off the ravenous horde of halo followers? I see ads for halo 3 and go "well...the first one sucked, never played the second one...but I almost wanna jump on the bandwagon just for the sake of being on the band wagon." I'll feel better when rainbow six and oblivion hit, assuming they're entertaining. still, the fact that there isn't shit on the playstation store pisses me off. We should be getting stuff like Vagrant Story, jesus christ. That's how you sell consoles, and sony needs to get their heads out of their goddamn assholes and start twisting square's arm about that one (or throwing money at them; either one would work well). Perhaps the most frustrating thing is that all of the selling points of the 360 aren't really selling points. Yes, there's Gears of War, but Resistance is still a great game, and I have my doubts about the multiplayer, though I haven't yet played either (gotta figure out how to either a. set up a wifi network in my house or b. run a cable from my PC down to the basement...or, maybe move the Beast upstairs, though I'm kinda afraid it might start blistering if exposed to sunlight or something).

This would all be so much easier if I, you know, had a job, could buy more than one console without having to save up for years and years in between. Unfortunately there's that whole get-perfect-grades-in-school-even-though-you're-still-not-going-to-get-into-harvard-cause-you-have-to-fucking-cure-cancer-to-get-in
thing...Yes, there have been some parental concessions that I need a means of getting money. However, they have done little in the way of offering up solutions beyond vaugeries that do little but forstall the inevitable conclusion that they will not be supplying said funds, likely in the belief that I will forget about it with my (they think) typical teenage attention span of all of about 5 seconds.

Yeah, so basically I hate this whole generation of consoles because they all SUCK. I just wanna go and play some finally fantasy 12, maybe pick up God of War and Okami and have some good old retro (jesus, is that shit really retro now? almost, I guess...) gaming. Or I could start dealing coke. That'd make some money.

I guess I should work on writing too...I'm getting the feeling that I'm really in over my head on this whole HiTN thing, even though I haven't worked on it in fucking forever. Trying to deal with multiple major emotional/spiritual tribulations for several characters while at the same time orchestrating a stupidly complicated plot is...daunting, to say the least. It's probably a good thing that I've been on this hiatus. I just don't think that I could handle it right now, not with school and all that stuff.

Basically I'm just feeling really bummed out right now, and barring ~$1000 falling in my lap, I don't think I'm going to feel a whole lot better any time soon. I could pull the whole "fuck school, I'm gonna get a job and get money for videogames" thing, but then I'd feel shitty about not doing well in school, and at this point I don't think that it's physically possible for me to do the minimum amount of work required for all of my classes, which is really all I ever do (it just so happens that that minimum involves reading pride and prejudice within a motherfucking week)

On a lighter note, I've been wondering about what kind of person, in highschool, has a DS with TRauma Center and Pokemon in it, simultaneously, and has a pokemon named HaHa I gave U AIDS on the aforementioned game. It also worries me that my brother has recently been uttering such nonsense "cracker I'll kill you" which I know is my fault, especially since I have failed to impress upon him the importance of dropping the last syllables of the first and third words in that phrase. Hmm...this could be a problem.

Yeah, so basically I'm stressed and pissed, and I really just wanna go skiing tomorrow and forget about all this crap. I'm also entertaining the idea that asking [someone] out might be a) good for me, on various levels, social, emotional, etc. and b) help take my mind off of all of this crap. Or it could be just one more thing that I have to deal with and just make everything worse. In the meantime, I'm just trying to get through the weekend so that on monday (well, tuesday, I guess) the usual shenanagins may resume. I'm particularly looking forward to some more extreme rock-paper-scissors and further culinary speculation on the best way to eat cancerous human FACE.

...thank you Sony, you have caused me to lose faith in video games...