fun...?

Yes, you're damn fucking right it's fun. But enough of that.

Wow, a week and a couple days flies by when you're having fun, though I would never go so far as to say that it did anything even remotely resembling flying. It was fun though. Anyway, the first week was crazy as all hell cause they screwed up our schedules and all that stuff, but it's fixed now and everything's fine, though I did manage to forget which studyhall i was in yesterday, but the lady at the office was crazy nice and even wrote me a pass so I wasn't late and it was awesome. So, yes, er, school... Hmm, well, most of the teachers are nice, though two are total air heads (cough, cough, lorenz, cough...) but that's okay cause they all actually know how to teach, though I must say it would be nice if Chew (yes, her name is Ms. Chew) didn't know how to teach cause then I could halfass my way through religion. Oh well, I think I'll survive, maybe. Still gotta figure out how to get rid of that bible sitting around in my room without actually touching it though...

Yeah, so things are cool now, though cross country has been making my feet hurt like all freaking hell. Ah, well, I can deal with that, and icing it helps so incredibly much it's not even funny. To think it too me this long to figure out that that would help, wow...

In terms of writing, well, it's just not happening, honestly. I've had all of about two days since school started (not counting the weekend, mind you) where I've had any free time whatsoever, and that was all given over to socializing (me, socialize, ha!). The weekend was a different story and I actually managed something clsoe to ten pages, which made me very happy. So, HiTN is going to take an eternity to even get off the ground, and I might just suspend it indefinately until things settle down some more, ergo, this winter, when I won't have cc practice every stinking day of the week. Nonetheless, I have been taking the time to think about the story, and I'm pretty sure that that is definately going to help things a LOT. There are still a lot of kinks, and I want to get them all worked out before I actually get to them, god knows I make more than enough of them on my own as it is :p

I finally got something resembling a half-decent cover picture for HiTN, the only accomplishment that I can really claim as far as the story goes. Of course, being me, I fucked Ki'ara's head all up to hell repeatedly so on the paper draft it looks like shit (Kami's ended up pretty bad, and I think I could have avoided all of this if I had had a decent eraser handy :p) but once I scanned it and cleaned everything up the only complaint that I could make about anything was that Ki'ara's head, though proportionally accurate, seemed to small because the heads of everyone else are really too big, though it's hard to really tell and I think that it looks fine. As it is, I'm NOT going to go back and fix that, because the paper's starting to get rubbed away and any more erasing is going to do some serious damage.

Gotta sleep, frisbee tomorrow.

t-minus 1 day

Ah!!!!!!!!!!!! School starts tomorrow! HFS! This is nuts! I have less than a day left before I start school! Somebody save me!

Hahahahaha. No, it's not that bad. In fact, it's just not bad at all, really. I'm kinda excited, and I 'spose I have little bit of an edge on everyone else in so far as I know where my homeroom is and who my homeroom teacher is. Yes, another year with Smohler (somehow I don't think I spelled that right), fun stuff :D So, yes, all hell is certainly going to break loose tomorrow, but the long and short of it is that I'm rather looking forward to it. A little hell is good for you, sometimes.

In other news: ordered all of those shirts and stuff. Had a massive fight with megagear.com, but then I figured out that it was my fault and not the site, and I got my shirt, so I really don't care now. Oh, and I figured out that "baka" means "idiot" in Japanese which I find to be rather amusing--especially since I learned that from the History Chanel.

I've been drawing today, and playing Kingdom Hearts. Did a nice little picture of Kami in his "second phase"clothes. Damn, it's so much fun throwing in random buckles and belts all over the place that serve no purpose but to entertain the artist and perhaps make the character more interesting to look at. As far as Kingdom Hearts goes, I go to Traverse Town and beat the shit out of Leon, which I must say was rather fun. Now I've gotta go and find Donald and Goofy and kill the Heartless Boss (Guard Armor was its name, if I recall correctly).

Now I'm gonna go draw some more, I think, cause I just don't feel like writing right now. Wonder if I ever will again? Ah, what the hell do I care? It's the last day of summer, I'm not gonna get stressed about anything until tomorrow.

um... my clock is haunted!

It has just struck me that I have never ranted about how my clock is haunted. At least I don't think that I have, but I'm too lazy to go back through the archives and find out just right now. Anyway, it's pretty simple, really. First off, it's not actually my clock, but close enough. It's one of those Bose clock radios and it's in our kitchen and it is upon said clock that sits the bottle containing my doxycycline (formerly minocycline, but then my dermatologist decided this new stuff would work better even though it doesn't). So every time I go over there at night to take the stuff before I go to be, the numbers and stuff dim. My dad claims that it's just because it's light-sensitive, but I still think that it's haunted. Now that I think about it, I'm pretty sure I've said something about this before, but I don't really care.

In other news there were several tornados that paid us a visit though none of them were particularly close to our house; one was really close to Max's, however, and that was rather worrying, though nothing ended up happening to them.

Ah yes, now I remember what else I was going to say! After 2 1/2 faithful years of service, our PS2 finally crapped out on us. No, it's more accurate to say that we finally got the motivation to get a new one, that motivation being him crying because he couldn't play his new game because it wouldn't read the disk properly. So now we have a new PS2, and it's about 1/4 the size of the old thing which I find to be absolutely mind-boggling. My brother got Lego Starwars. Not regular Starwars, but lego starwars. Personally I find that absolutely disgusting, though I must say that the drop-in drop-out cooperative play really is rather nice. That and being able to run around as just about anybody from the 1st three movies in the diner place and get in random brawls with everyone. Okay, so I played it a little and it's mildly entertaining, if not disgustingly easy. No game-overs, no punishment at all for dying except you lose a little money. What are video games coming to?

I did a new sketch of Ki'ara. Yeah, so it's really better than a sketch and I'm quite happy with the way that it turned about, especially cause now she doesn't have massive shoulders. I did the arms better and the whole figure just turned out more realistically. I should have made her hair a little more prominant, cause right now her face could easily be mistaken for that of a boy. I blame it on the manga style as the failing point for thatl, but hey, it's so much easier to just give everyone a round, glossy face, so what the hell. Her hands suck as do her feet, but I'm working on the latter at least. On of the feet actually turned out ok, and the other would have looked fine if I hadn't decided to giver her sandals.

Working on HiTN has turned out to be a real pain in the ass, though a lot of that is thanks to the fact that I haven't had much time to write because of cross country, orientation, and the code-of-bullshit-conduct meeting, so I'm not taking all the blame. Part of the matter is that I was dumb enough to play Kingdom Hearts to burn off steam yesterday. It is without a doubt the most fun hack-and-slash game ever, and the storyline is absolutely awesome as well. But anyway, now I want some fantastical but subtly menacing stuff in it as well. Not quite like Kingdom Hearts or the FF games, but sort of intensely colorful but dangerous and evil at the same time. Twisted. So, that's getting worked in. My thoughts are that after the whole escape sequence in pseudo-RL and a boatload of trench fighting, both Ki'ara and Kami are going to find themselves in this fucked up world in weird clothes, etc, etc... It's gonna be this virutal playground/battlefield hoasted jointly by Clandestine I & II so they can slug it out with each other. Of course Clandestine I will at the same time be trying to annihilate the actual housing of Clandestine II, but Clandestine II has little knowledge of RL and won't have any idea that it's vulnerable outside of it's own domain. You poor, stupid bastard, Clandestine II, well, you both--wait, shit, giving stuff away! Ah! 'Kay, I'm done for now : )

"now i'm in over my head, with something i said, completely misread, i'm better off dead"

3 miles XD

First cross counrty practice. Oi, never thought I'd run more than a mile and a half or so in one day, and yet we jogged for ten minutes, stretched, then ran three bloody miles. Ay, that's nuts, though it's a bit of a stretch to say I was running--but don't get me wrong, I wasn't walking... much :p Hopefully I'll actually be able to, you know, survive this.

In lighter and rather delayed news, I have now, finally, decided to rant about the Wisconsin Writes convention or whatever you call it at the art museum in Milwaukee. Already I'm getting bored, so I'll make this quick: the actual writing part of it was incredibly boring and I personally didn't find that it really helped all that much, though it's likely others might have, I don't know; what really made it fun was all of the people that were there :)

Oi, I'm tired. Gonna go, idk, do something that doesn't involve moving.

PS: I have started collecting pop tabs and am keeping them on a black shoe string. I am now Mr. Jingle--watch out Felix Jongleur ; oh, wait, the Other killed him already, whoops.

ID=shit

Note: the whole thing with the title is a takeoff on the title for the Slipknot song, "People=Shit", with ID being an abbreviation of "Intelligent Design", and of course expresses my feelings on such bullshit :)

So, as I am certain you may have figured out from the title and following explanation, I have quite a bone to pick with ID and all of the morons who think that it ought to be taught in schools. Right, so this all came up cause, and many of you nonexistant readers probably know this, of the article on ID in the newest issue of Time Magazine. Now, I do not really know exactly what brought all of this up recently, but I would not be surprised if the History Channel's "Ape to Man" show had something to do with it all, maybe.

Right off I'm just gonna say that ID is a bunch of shit made up by people who are too faith-blinded to accept anything other than the literal interpretation of the Bible and who are also too stupid to connect the dots and think "Hmm, maybe it took a little more than 6 days, and oh look, this evolution stuff makes a lot of sense". Our country is full of a lot of very stupid people, I'm afraid, and that means that a lot of them are going to try and press their bullshit beliefs on everyone else. Sound familiar? Slavery? Racism? Anti-homosexuality? Anti-abortion? Need I go further? Oh, and if you're dumb: CONSERVATIVE FUCKING REPUBLICANS!

With that off my chest, I think I shall proceed and give all the information that a rational person would need to come to the conclusion that evolution is not some great pile of crap. First off, there is the whole detail of there not being any other theory out there. Oh, and the fact that it is a THEORY which means that it's as close to a fact as you can get without having a time machine and being able to watch every damn minute of the history of the planet. Furthermore, if you think that it's just downright impossible for something like an eye to develope, then why not think of it this way: it is possible that a cell could get zapped, mutate, and become photosensitve, yes? And that would certainly give the organism a major advantage over all of the others, right? So, it's therefore quite likely to pass on the traight to its offspring, and even if it doesn't, that's not to say it won't happen with something else. Then, it's just a matter of the eye mutating properly over the course of millions of years before you finally get a recognizable eye. Rember, this takes a very long time.

Then there's the whole "but there's holes in the fossil record!" argument. Unfortunately, not everything fossilizes, as I am sure that you all know, making it incredibly unlikely that there would be a fossil of every single step in the evolutionary process. So, barring a having a time machine to go back and look with, we have to make inferences, just like murder investigators who don't have vdeo footage of what goes on. Now, all you conservatives sure don't have much of a problem with tossing people in jail and often times even killed them without having concrete, indisputable evidence as to their guilt, yet when it comes to something that clashes with your beliefs, you're more than happy to reverse your strategy. Furthermore, the conditions on earth are and have been such that it is more than possible that organisms that are important to the evolution of life have never been found as fossils. The fact is that it takes a rather incredible set of circumstances to make a fossil, so to have that happen with every link in the chain is just downright absurd, and expecting it to is even more foolhardy.

I would also like to say that I believe that the people who are making these anti-evolution arguments are closeminded fools who do not like to accept what is reality. Show me substantial proof that evolution is wrong, like a T-rex in the pre-cambrean era, and I'll be more than happy to acknowledge that evolution is wrong. However, to cling to fading beliefs that arose from a brutal, ignorant time like they are the only thing holding you together is pretty damn sad. Now, I'm not gonna give you all an anti-religion lecture today, but you can sure as hell bet that you're gonna get one sooner or later.

Furthermore, to try and teach ID in schools is un-Constitutional, but of course, Mr. Jackass-Bush has done his very best to try and change all of that with his nice little supreme court nominations and such forth. Well, if you think that teaching kids that life formed when some big mysterious "engineer" tinkered around with stuff, then you are not only evangelizing them, if subtly, but you are breaking straight through that whole separation of church and state thing that is quite clearly spelled out in the Constitution. And if you are going to try and tell me that you're not forcing god on these kids, then I suppose you must be supporting the existance of aliens or some other bullshit. Pick your poison on that count, then get back to me and I'll rip you apart some more.

So, here are just a few reasons why ID is absolutely bullsiht. But for the most part, it's really just depressing because it's another example of stupid people being unable to see reality and accept it and therefore they try desperately to come up with some bullshit excuse for their beliefs that never stands the test of time so long as there are those who don't share the same views controlling 1/2 of the country. Now, I desperately hope that the next generation is going to be able to go to school and not get evangelized, and I am confident that people like me are going to continue to make our voices heard, but there is a very troubling rise in conservative-ism in the country lately, and it may just be that this is the intro phase to a western version of Iran or Saudi Arabia, or worse. Well, if that's the case, then I'm gonna fight it, and hope that I either win, or die/leave the country before things get too bad.

In short, I just want to say that this all saddens me greatly, and I wish that you conservative people could understand what you're doing.

PS: on a lighter, more annyoing note, I've had "Surfacing" stuck in my head for the last couple hours and it's starting to piss me off. So here it is:

"Fuck it all, fuck this world, fuck everything that you stand for; don't belong, don't exist, don't give a shit, don't ever judge me!"

DONE!!!!!!!!!!!

Yes, Heart of the Coldis FINALLY finished, as is my series. Well, the end Telnar and Crion fight sequences went off more or less perfectly, though the one with Phenix got a little rushed because the Crion one went over its limit. Oh well. I might have to operate on it, but for now I'm just gonna let it gel for a little while. In fact, I'm now almost certain that I'm gonna have to perform surgery, but not today. I've gotta bask in my victory at least for a little while. Holy is Thy Namew will commence once school starts, and not a moment before then. I need a break from writing, and yes, 2 weeks is an incrediblely long break by my standards.

PS: greatest song in the world is Waiting (Green Day; Warning, Track 10)
PPS: words I learned from listening to Slipknot: filial, catatonic, thalidomide, and bucolic. Either somebody there knows how ot use a dictionary or they are more than just bucolic sociopaths :)

kami says hi

Note: most of this is going to be dedicated to something other than crap about Kami, but I think that you can all deal with that, right?

Well, first off, I'm happy with myself for being ahead of my "10 pages a day or bust!" schedule, for I have typed 27 pages in 2 days. Geez, I'm nearly a day ahead of schedule (or as they say in Britain, sheddle) which makes me happy :) Yeah, so I'm at page 185 and things are starting to come to a head, well, sorta. Phenix & co. are about to meet up with Crion and running into Tasria and have all sorts of fun discussions. I 'spose I ought to think of a name for "the businessman" whos teamed up with Tasria, but I'm too lazy at present. So I've gotta get back to the siege of Kirek-Felhar and all that fun stuff eventually, too. Strangely, there is going to be no monstrous end siege/battle, and the main reason is because a) I say so and b) the story is just too short for anything even 50 pages long, cause then that'd be about 1/5 of the story, and I'm sorry, but that's just excessive (1/6 is just fine though :p).

So, anyway, that little distraction aside, I can get on to more (ha!) important things, like Kami. Kami is your friend and he likes things that go bang. He is also an old friend too, who has gone by Taeris, Black, and Alsarin/Black, respectively. Yeah, so I felt like changing his name and at first I was gonna go for something like Blue/Blu, but I figured anyone who watches Foster's Home For Imaginary Friends (best show ever!) or has played the GBC generation of pokemon games will think I'm borrowing from that. So, I was using Kami as a screen name (i was gonna do "kamikazi" or, if I had space, "kamikazi clock" but there wasnt room for either) and I though, "well, hell, Taeris needs a new name, even though he really doesnt cause now we have..."--shit, forgot her name; wait, did she ever have one??--"whatsername for RL, but I liked Kami better". I think Kami seems almost more... innocent, almost, which is in some regards what I'm shooting for. So, Kami says hi and you better say hi back damn you!

On a somewhat less amusing note, I must say the people at www.loveinaction.org are absolute morons. That, and they are ignorant, bible-blinded fools who have a too romanticized view of the world to realize that there's no point to it all and you just have to do the best you can with the time you've got. They are just sick, twisted morons who think that people chose to be homosexual. Oi, I don't even understand them. Yes, I'm certain people choose to go through all the ridicule, bullying, and discrimination that it all entails because they like it. Oh, and verbally/physically assault someone enough and you can get someone to do whatever the hell you want. The new Tomoyo42's Room makes a good point of this (http://manga.clone-army.org/t42r.php). I'd do something like that if my art skills didn't suck ass. Well, hey, I'm getting better, slowly.

Kay, that's enough for now. Kami says hi.