Tuesday, July 31, 2007

sunburned

So, indeed I am rather sunburned. Extremely, actually. Quite painful, especially when I'm out in the sun more, which is...just about all the time. Whatever, camp's almost over, and then I can go back to sulking in the dark confines of video game land and get pale again. In addition, I've actually gotten a few decent welts and bruises from our games today, as well as a rather massive scratch on my ribs from...something. I don't know. Whatever, we won both, though the early one was very close (needed braveheart to finish it, and we almost lost that, too). The second one was a slaughter, which was nice, but tomorrow we have to play the other two undefeated teams. Woo, fun. I'm contemplating just not going. I wonder if anything bad would actually happen. I guess I could get barred from going back next year, but I don't know that I really care. I suppose, if nothing else, I've gotten better at face offs. Actually won about 50% of all the ones I took, and the other guy was quite good.

Oddly enough, I'm actually developing a taste for Train now...I don't know why, but I guess I never figured I would ever be able to listen to the Refreshments again, either. Fine with me, really, though I still need to get that new Sum 41 CD.

Had an odd dream about being in Tokyo (except it was really more like New York with a large beach between it and the ocean, and buried under a ton of snow) with Libby, McCoy, and a bunch of other people that I didn't know. We were walking through the ICU wing of a hospital, for some reason, and were looking out a bunch of windows at the beach. It was late and snowing really heavily, and we could see this massive thunderhead formation moving in from off the ocean, but as it got closer and bigger we realized it was moving too fast to be a storm. Someone said they thought it was 1 1/2 minutes away, then someone else said thirty, and then it hit the building like the blastwave from a nuclear bomb or an asteroid impact or whatever. Had the faint concept of a mobile nuclear bomb/explosion thing that generated its own storm system and ran a muck as it traveled, and then I woke up. Weird, but kinda funny how it reflects some of the real things that are going on in RL that you're thinking a lot about. Maybe Chew(baca) wasn't entirely off about your dreams having meaning...well, not meaning, but certainly influenced by the state of your emotions and thoughts. Not about Tokyo or monstrous roving nukes, though - actually, that's a really terrifying idea. I guess that'll make its way into LiZ at some point. Kinda thing that would make sense there, really.

the hardest part is letting go, especially when the reasons are so trivial yet so unbridgeable.
thinking about what may have been if things had been different...but they can't, and that's what is so hard.

- Veracity Out -
damn you, geography! damn you to hell!

Monday, July 30, 2007

I am officially ridiculous

Don't really know why, but I guess I feel that way. Indeed, I certainly do think that I am, and with good reason (or, of course, I wouldn't feel that way in the first place). It's just...I don't know, ah well ...I suppose I'm just about ready to make that last little adjustment. Funny how a few mouse clicks seems to be so important, so symbolic.

- Veracity Out -

Sunday, July 29, 2007

My Feet=Sore

Ugh, first day of lacrosse camp and I already want to shoot myself in the face. Not because of the actual lacrosse part of it, but simply because the people there are so unreservedly asinine. It really does make me want to die. No, better yet, "I hope you all die." Thanks, Connor. "I hate you all," works rather well too. Again, Connor. The fact that as soon as some of the other guys there discovered a telephone booth (sans telephone) the immediate speculation ranged from a booth for jacking off to a sex box...God. Yes, I realize they were kidding (hopefully), but nonetheless, the fact that many of them couldn't figure out what it actually was...Jesus, it makes me worry.

In some ways, no, actually, in many, it makes me realize how much fun WCATY was. Part of it is just the Nazi-ishness of the camp. Everyone in bed by 10, if you want to order a pizza you do it through one of the coaches; can't go out wandering after the evening session is over (granted, the desire to is minimal, given both the heat and the atrocious level of ugliness that pervades the campus). True, there are a boat load more kids here than at WCATY, but nonetheless. The idea that I would spend all of my free time reading was utterly foreign to most of the guys there. Again, disturbing, but not singularly surprising.

At least the actual lacrosse part of it was nice. I sucked horribly, at first, but I worked out most of the kinks, scored a goal right at the beginning of the game, and generally did quite well. Bungled two fast breaks, but at least the first one was due more to good defense than an out and out failing on my part. And there are a few guys from the Regents on my mini-team, which is also nice, though no Virnoche or Caleb. Oh well. We actually beat their team, which was nice.

I actually managed to get some writing done this morning, but that obviously isn't going to continue over the next few days. At least I don't have to get up super early. And I have AC, and no one else there does. It's kind of weird, not even making an attempt at being social, but I don't really care. Kind of like being back in middle school. But the thing is that I just have absolutely no interest in talking to anyone there other than Nick. I'm not going to try and pull shit like this at school, because there are people there that are actually fun to hang out with, but this does remind me why we were so antisocial during middle school. I look back sometimes and think it was asinine, but at least now I remember that there was a very legitimate reason for it, and at least now I don't regret it. Granted, I'll probably forget all of this eventually, but whatever.

[Deleted because better sense finally won through]

- Veracity Out -
My, what funny words we play with. Attached, for example, is deliciously mutable. Ah mutability...

Saturday, July 28, 2007

oh noes!

Ugh, Lacrosse camp starts tomorrow. It'll be nice to see Nick and Caleb, assuming they're there. But other than that...I'd rather be sitting at home reading and working on my little projects and whatnot. Oh well, I hope it'll be fun, and if nothing else, not too hot.

Major development for today was plowing through the entire first act of Gears on Insane. It was weird, actually - I don't know why this happened; I don't think it has anything to do with the time I put into Rainbow, cause the style of gameplay is totally different when it really matters (shooting people & knowing when to get your fool head down) - I played the opening tutorial bit and got through the whole thing without dying or even getting close. Very strange, considering that I hadn't managed to get through it previously with much effort spent on it. So blowing through that bit was weird, and I was like "Hmm, maybe I can make a run at this." It got weirder when it didn't get any harder. Honestly, I've only spent as much time on it as I did when playing on Hardcore. So I'll probably spend some time beating the snot out of it. It'd be fun to get through it and be like "Damn, I just beat this game on Insane...Holy shit." Kinda makes me wanna play some multi, but at the same time, I don't know that I wanna drop $50 into it. I'm definitely not going to have the time to do it during the school year, and I don't know that I'd get a whole lot out of it, when I've got Rainbow and Resistance for free on PSN. I guess I'll see.

In other news, The Diamond Age continues to be delicious. I'm just hoping he can hold the plot together this time around.

Ugh, had to see the Simpsons movie with Jack. It was painful. The best parts were the Green Day and Schwarzenegger cameos, and the last 20 seconds where Homer nails a bunch of shingles into his leg. Slapstick never gets old, but the rest of the movie was just kinda meh, at the very best.

Only real positive about lacrosse camp will be that it will keep me from obsessively checking my gmail. Funny how sometimes I think I'm too invested in this, and other times I wish that I could even get mopey about it.

And according to Cali I'm amazing. I don't know that I'd agree, but I'm kinda curious where that is coming from. True, everyone who went on the Italy trip is automatically made awesome/amazing by that simple fact, but still...

- Veracity Out -
you save me and I will save the day

Thursday, July 26, 2007

Sooooooo Tired

My eyes are dry and my brain is rotting out of my head. Oh well, never needed it that much.

So, my pathetic subsistence on teh internets continues, and likely will until my friends list has reached reasonably large, socially-acceptable levels (and God Damn proper grammar, Reginator).

Incapable of putting myself through more of the Butlerian Jihad, I started working on the Diamond Age and, of course, was hooked immediately. Big friggin' surprise. Stephenson's forte is certainly creating very vivd, believable worlds, and I'm a sucker for that. I'm just hoping that the plot and actual execution of the story are better than they were in Snow Crash. I miss VR, but I guess the...oh, damn, whatever it was called, in Otherland, was cooler than its counterpart in Snow Crash, so big shit.

Got some more writing done today, which is better than nothing, I suppose. Indeed, I would have done more, but I got distracted by reading, still, I wrote more today (by a page) than I have over the last few days. I suppose I should just be grateful I'm getting any writing done at all.

Played Scrabble with the paternals and won, by virtue of a dirty vocabulary and a lucky find in the dictionary. I was looking for the proper spelling of queef, and stumbled upon quim instead, which is just as dirty, but was sufficient for me to rack up 45 points. Tacking screw descending from the end of that provided another splurge of points and mortified the other participants. But I won, so what the hell.

Only other news was reaching the distinguished position of commenter on Kotaku. Apparently you have to "audition" to get the slot - basically so that they don't have to ban a million people, instead of just hundreds. Basically I wrote something sarcastic in a couple threads, and bam I got a user account, etc. I don't know how much I'll feel motivated to actually use it, but I do want to know who nabbed the "veracity" user name. so I went with ubiquitous instead; sufficiently polysyllabic and cool for my purposes, but slightly more difficult to type correctly when you're trying to get something written quickly.

- Veracity Out -
NB: sam has thrown a sheep at you

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

annoyances galore

the overbearingly easy access that I have to facebook/gmail has made it nearly impossible for me to get anything decent written. granted, being social isn't exactly a bad thing, but it makes me worry that the Warzone Project, or anything else for that matter, may never get done. i will certainly have to curtail my usage by the time school starts.

god damn you, gmail.

yes, i am an addict. now i must go read

- Veracity Out -

"no chance of finding a woman who/will love you in the morning and all the nighttime too" - tough lucky, you fat fucks

God Damn You

So Lair is hitting on August 14 which would be nice...if I had any money. As it is, it'll be joining the list of games I need to buy, along with Bioshock, the Darkness, perhaps Overlord, Supreme Commander, etc...

Tried to start reading the Butlerian Jihad, but the writing was just so atrocious I couldn't bring myself to press on. Ugh. Honestly, it probably would have been best if Elder Herbert had quit after the first book, gone and done some other things. He had a hard enough time keeping his thoughts coherent through two books (read: Whipping Star and the Dosadi Experiment), and three was too much for him, and then he just couldn't content himself to let it lie, Jesus. And then the kids start playing with daddy's sandbox and the shit really hit the fan. I really have to wonder whether Herbert the Younger had any writing experience WHATSOEVER, because it certainly doesn't seem like it. No, he was probably just like, "Damn, dad had a pretty sweet gig going on, I guess I'll try dipping my hand in the same pot..." And now we're stuck with a two-bit piece of shit that claims to be a NYT Best-Seller (I seriously have to wonder whether that was this specific book, or maybe just the original, cause all of the praise quotes are a hodgepodge of different ones for the newer books, not just Butlerian Jihad). Basically, I'm just bummed cause I don't think I can bring myself to read that sort of shit, despite really wanting to know what happened. Though if Elder Herbert didn't leave a whole stack of notes that it's based on, then I guess I just don't care.

Played a lot of Odin Sphere and got to the end of Cornelius' story, but haven't been able to beat the final boss yet. Part of that is certainly due to the fact that I'm horribly under-level and haven't realized it until just about now. Problem is, I'm not really sure I care; the story has more or less taken a major nosedive, and every level is one that I've played before, essentially, so it's losing its appeal fast. What a shame.

And for Christ's sake, how many days can you spend doing stuff in the Boundary Waters? This is fast turning into an East Coast scenario. Kinda wish it were happening to me, though. Then I wouldn't have to be faced with the pathetic progress that I'm trying to make on the Warzone Project.

- Veracity Out -

high5 for sexytime

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Registration and Whatnot

Yeah, so we had registration today, just in time to remind me that school's looming in the background. I don't know, I'll probly be ready for it in like a week. God.
Spent well over an hour trying to get my schedule sorted out because AP Chem ended up being 2 mods long, but only every other day. It's weird as hell, but I kinda like the idea. So basically I ended up having to take weightlifting instead of fall team sports - big shit, i don't care. And Reflective Living instead of Morality - which I supposedly have to take next year, but if I don't have room again I'm sure as hell not sacrificing a class in order to have room for it. If Tahaney wants to fight about it, the bitch is gonna get beat down.
Claire's the one who's really fucked though. She's only got one slot for either Algebra 2A or Humanities, and there are only 3 or 4 other people who have the same problem. Doubtless unless someone really gets on TY's case, this is just gonna slip by until 2nd Semester, and then they're just gonna be like "Oh noes, too bad 4 u". Fun stuff, but I'm all set so I don't give a flying fuck.

I've been playing a lot of Odin Sphere and it's fun, and the frame rate hasn't been as bad as it was in the beginning, but it's super repetitive. You basically end up running through the same levels over and over, but with different characters. The differences are minimal, other than appearance...So yeah, the story w/ Cornelius is far less interesting than the opening Gwendolyn/Oswald dealio. I guess I'll see how it goes, but I might put most of my effort in God of War 2 and Rainbow. I should really play some multi on the latter after I get better at it.

Picked up The Butlerian Jihad and The Diamond Age at Barnes and Noble today, as well. Hopefully I'll find one of them interesting, but I'm loving the book we have to read for Euro. The last 15 pages have been about the ridiculous extent to which medieval people were crazy horny. I laughed at several parts of it, and had to just kinda shrug it off when the Parentals got too interested. "Yeah, Mom, it's about how the measured who could ejaculate the most, it was friggin' hilarious..." That would go over like a lead balloon.

Did a little shopping @ Kohl's, got a couple pairs of jeans, and a shirt. The last one's a bit of an experiment, more along the lines of what WCATY Sam would wear. I guess we'll see how that one goes over, but the jeans are good.

Haven't really written anything. Probably should, but I kinda feel like just curling up and reading some more of my Euro book.

And I probe further into that dark reaches of the foreign realm known as Facebook...added a bunch of people from WCATY that I barely know, but whatever. Sam and Toler are cool, and I definitely wanna keep in touch with them. In a similar vein, I talked w/ a few people @ registration and then Barnes & Noble from Edgewood that I don't know that I've ever really talked to before, and I didn't catch on fire or anything. Pleasant, actually. I guess I'll have to eschew the whole "fuck you, im gonna be antisocial again" idea that I've been fostering since I got back from WCATY. I probably could have done it, but I don't really want to have a redux of middle school any more.

- Veracity Out -

watch out or Jack Thompson will blast you with his doucheray

Monday, July 23, 2007

Sunday, July 22, 2007

so....what now?

Well shit.

Finished Dune today, plowed through HP yesterday, and suddenly I don't really have anything to read...except for all of the crap for Am Lit and Euro, but whatever. I kinda felt like writing something profound, or whatever, but I'm all outa juice.

Been sporadically working on Hazel Ridge, but for the most part it's been 3 or 4 pages here and there, which is certainly better than nothing...Just not the sort of progress that I'd like to be making. So, whether it gets done by the end of summer or not remains to be seen, but being home now ought to help, but I guess we'll see. If nothing else I'd like to get my video game load cleared out too, though books really ought ot be my priority considering how much reading i get done during the school year.

So I'll be home for a while now. I really ought to fire off some emails to other people from WCATY, see what's going on. I'd like to keep in touch with Perky the Elder and Jenni. If only so that I can eventaully get my hands on the tape ball.

So, profundity is not coming tonight. Oh well.

Long live ninja warrior!

- Veracity Out -

Friday, July 20, 2007

33 Minutes

So, yeah...excited, but tired. We're leaving in about 15 minutes for the bookstore. I really should upload some of my musings from The Other Book here, or maybe just write here. No actually I'll stick with The Other Book and upload anything that is safe for public consumption.

I now remember why I love God of War. It is primarily a great game, both in terms of combat and the platforming elements, but also because it is loosely based on Greek mythology...and then flys in the face of all of that. Killing Theseus by slamming his head in a door was spectacular. I honestly giggled and wriggled my toes in delight.

I'm a little disappointed that I didn't finish Dune, but I don't really care. Too tired. Not sure how late I'll stay up reading, but probably not very.

Paradise on my right, Hell on my left and the Angel of Death behind.

- Veracity Out -